About Sisk

Farrah "Siskmarek" Barney: a savior to some, a loyal friend to many, a guiding light to many more, and one who consistently seeks to leave the world a better place than she found it. Born as a biological male in 1983 to her loving mother in California, she was given the name Joshua. She would find early on that her gender was misaligned with her sex but due to pressure from her father, she wouldn't be able to adopt her proper identity until much later in life. This, along with poverty and regular relocation, added to the hardship that Farrah faced throughout her life. But despite this hardship, Farrah always seemed to find a way to march through life with enthusiasm. That is until her teenage years where the loss of a friend would shake her entire outlook on life.

In the 1990's, the internet changed the way that we as a people communicate. Online chat rooms connected us in realtime to those who would otherwise be too geographically separated. In this way, those who were so inclined could form functional relationships with others, no matter where they happened to be. Through these means, Farrah made friends with a girl in the United Kingdom named Claire. Sadly, Claire was a victim of severe parental abuse and, as Farrah would learn from another friend, Claire took her own life after being unable to cope with the abuse she face.  Farrah was overcome with grief. She felt responsible for not preventing Claire's death while she tried to imagine all of the ways she could have helped. Once the grief from loss had faded, Farrah was left only with resolve. She refused to loss anyone else to suffering, especially from abuse, and she committed herself to helping anyone she met in any way she could.

Over the years that followed, aside from quickly becoming known as the individual who would literally give the shirt off of her back to help another, Farrah refined her art skill and developed a style that would eventually become the basis for the Ask-Keis blog.

Through her blog, Farrah found a way to reach out to those she couldn't meet directly, and help them through whatever hardship they may face. Ask-Keis provided a constant positive message that encouraged critical thinking, showed examples of loss and methods of coping, and uplifted its audience with encouragement to do good themselves. This, along with Farrah's other works and projects, earned her a place in the internet's spotlight.

Throughout this time, Farrah made and lost many friends as she moved about the Western states. While living in Utah, Farrah befriend a girl online who reminded her much of Claire, the friend she had lost to suicide. This new friend (referred to as LW) lived in Arizona and also seemed to be a victim of parental abuse. LW used her online anonymity to publicly tell her tragic story of her father's angry projection of abuse against her to anyone that would listen. Farrah, vowing to never allow another to fall to such abuse, became immediately involved. Quickly learning of her father's abusive protests to LW's deviant behavior, Farrah did everything she could to try and protect LW. A romantic relationship formed between the two through Farrah's understanding and kindness. LW claimed to be an adult and started to request intimate favors from Farrah, to which Farrah obliged. However, the relationship was only over the internet and the only act of intimacy to be performed was the sharing of sensitive pictures between parties. As their relationship developed, the abuse from LW's father seemingly became worse by LW's public account, and eventually LW decided to run away from home. Farrah worked desperately to find a shelter for LW to go to, but LW's intent was to run to Farrah instead. The local police were contacted and LW was found not far from home. It quickly came to light that LW was not the adult she claimed to be to many online and Farrah was know subject to investigations on claims of kidnapping and soliciting a minor; an investigation that would go on for 5 years and see Farrah charged and sentenced to a lifetime of probation and a lifetime ban on internet use of any kind.

For her acts of kindness, Farrah was railroaded. She now lives her life barred from helping those she cares for, and cut off from the support of family and friends. Her blogs and artwork were forcibly removed from the internet and destroyed by legal authority. And her name is forever on a sex offender registry for an act she did not commit.


However, through the dedication and efforts of her friends and followers, most of her artwork was able to return to the internet in the form of copies saved by fans. Even the new works she creates today can be found online thanks to the consistent hard work of her closest friends who now manage fan accounts in her respect.

The following account was provided by a friend of Farrah and one of her biggest supporters. It's one of many similar accounts that show what Farrah means to those who know her:

The first experience I had with Farrah Barney was through her Ask Keis blog.  I discovered her blog purely by chance.  I found one of Ask Keis’ answers while browsing furry artwork.  It struck a chord with me and from there I was able to find more of Farrah’s work, and her account on Twitter.  I could not have found it at a better time. I was dealing with a family crisis and was under a great deal of pressure.  There were more than a few days when one of her answers would be the first thing that made me smile.  The compassion and innocence Keis had always helped, even when the answer wasn’t happy. Then the updates stopped completely, and it all started to disappear.  I had seen from other posts she made that it had happened once before, for reasons that had caused her pain.  That is what drove me to look for someone I had only known before as Siskmarek Namaruk.

Farrah Barney has always been a passionate person, and a strong person.  Farrah would probably argue about her strength, she has before.  Unjustly punished for an innocent mistake, Farrah has been through more pain and suffering than most.  She has spent too much time separated from the people who love her.  She has spent far too much time in cages.  Farrah has thought about just ending, but she is still here.  She has been given every reason to hate this world and the people in it, but she hasn’t given in.  She has found someone to love, and the courage to fight for him when he needed her most.  Farrah has continued to reach out and comfort her friends, even through her own loneliness.  She draws strength from her ability to help other people, it helps define who she is.  Farrah continues to inspire us to fight for her.


In better times, she shared her burning interest in space and space travel.  Announcements from NASA and SpaceX have always been closely followed.  Soyuz launches are tracked, and watched when possible. Even unlikely discoveries from outside groups are examined.  Without Internet access, Farrah was able to track down enough information from friends and traditional media to intelligently discuss recent developments like the EM drive.  She spoke of stargazing in Utah. Farrah spent many cold, clear nights with her telescope following the planets, or just watching the skies. She is fascinated with Mars, and followed everything going on to get humanity to Mars.  In a more just world, Farrah would be among the early colonists.
I did not know her during better times, and now she is back in prison.  I remember the post cards she sent during the last time she was there.  The strain was obvious in each one, but she made an effort not to wallow in it.  She wrote about getting out at night to see the stars, or to spot Jupiter over the walls.  She wrote about the other people there, a man screaming in despair and the reaction of other prisoners, a man begging for help to someone on the other end of a video call.  She described these events with compassion. These were people in pain and she wanted to help them.  She drew for the other people there, and she helped another transgendered person before being sent to Arizona.

Farrah has always been very passionate about what is right, and how people are treated.  She fought the absurdity of what passes for group therapy in Arizona.  Each person standing in turn, so the rest of the group can tear them down as demanded by the therapist in charge.  People forced to denounce everyone that tried to help or support them.  The bullying and personal destruction that form the core of therapy in the Arizona program never sat well with her. Most people would simply give up and do what they were told.  Farrah remained defiant, unwilling to harm others or turn her back on her friends.   

That is the kind of person Farrah is, she cares about people even when she is tired, and alone, and the world seems to be against her. That is the kind of person she has been.  She has helped me find something to stand for and believe in.  Before talking to her I had always watched everything from the side lines, never participating or getting involved.  Never connecting with anyone.  Farrah helped me open up to other people.  We shared stories, and talked about our hopes and fears.  Farrah has helped me find a course, and a way to do something that matters.

Farrah has reached out and done even more for others.  Farrah saved the lives of more than one friend.  They were on the edge, ready to give up and end their suffering permanently.  Farrah found a way to reach them and bring them back.  These people owe her their lives and will not give up or back down from her defense.  Her current trouble began with reaching out and saving another person.  She risked everything to help someone she loves.  He was trapped in an abusive relationship, being driven to end it all.  Even knowing what it would cost her, she still risked everything to save him.  These actions, and so many others, are why there are so many people supporting Farrah with their own words and actions.  Farrah has saved so many of us, now we will do what we can to save her.

-- AnonSergal

Farrah's story is still being written. Throughout all she has endured, she has held on tightly to her resolve to help others, and through our support and the awareness that we can spread, Farrah will have a fighting chance to one day rejoin the world and continue her positive outreach to everyone.

Throughout everything, Farrah is still with us; she's still here.

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